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7.30.2004
I had another post in the works. Its saved as a draft. Its about taxes again. It can wait. Its story time. I had two groups of friends in high school. I spent loads of time with each group and enjoyed every minute of it, but rarely did the two groups mix. Though I don't find much use in Astrology, I was born on May 29th 1974. One day in a fit of naivete I asked my two good friends P and J whether they had ever engaged in the act of self defeat. I'm not exactly sure how I phrased it, but I asked them if they had ever just stopped and ripped apart all their conceptions and brought themselves down to nothing. The blank looks were my answer. "You know? Just admit to yourself all those things that you secretly dread? Get it out there. Listen to your own voice say it? Put yourself in the position of vulnerability? And realize its not worth all this running away?" Self destruction is a beautiful thing, because only on top of our own self delusions do we build our worst selves. Human beings, nasty brutish things as we are, only transcend our natures when we can have the courage to look at it, and see it for what it is. Never admit weakness. Some people find this kind of self honesty off-putting. But really, can you expect to wrestle your demons in the dark? Take a break, flip on the lights, say "Man, you some ugly mofo!" flip the lights back off and go about your task yet again. Who would think that the road to success leads to many different places? Somebody has to live like I do. S would have understood. |
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